To be honest, I’m struggling in my faith.

I guess I am struggling with what the Bible says and what I want to do.

I know this sounds crazy for fellow believers because what the Bible says, we need to do. But now I am questioning why? Why do I need to do what the Bible says in this particular area?

I have been following the Bible in this particular area for decades to no avail. I thought by now I would see God working in this particular area but haven’t seen anything. Should I continue? What is this all for?

Along with that I am worried that God is going to condemned me if I slip up and sin. I know this is false and that God is love and He doesn’t condemn for “God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him” (John 3:17). But right now I feel as if I am being condemned before I have done anything.

And because I’m struggling and I am thinking about not following the Bible, I feel ashamed and that I can’t approach God. I can’t pray or praise Him. Shame is keeping me away from His presence.

I know this is the devil working to keep God and me apart. I am trying to fight it but I am struggling.

It’s hard sharing this but I share it so that others who maybe struggling may know they are not alone and feel encouraged to keep going and drawing closer to God.